Holy Moly Sickness

Our sicky sicky bug
So so heart breaking

I have never ever...(.well I cant say never--remember how our labor and delivery was 24 hrs with 40 hrs of no sleep) been so tired. I was quick to say that it was harder than the first weeks at home and my mom quickly reminded me about how tired we were then, but how soon I forgot about that.

 

R-S-V

Thats all I have to say.

 

Whew!

We did lots of this: sleeping on mama
I certainly loved all the snuggles

We are on the up and up! Thank you sweet Lord. This has been one of the hardest few weeks we have been through. What started out as a very small minor cold (even thought it was teething) turned into the worst RSV (ok, no worst bc we werent admitted to the hospital). But I really don't want to go through that again. I learned a lot about myself as a mom and God is pruning me as a mom I would have to say. There were many tears shed. One day I was having a meltdown and I look over, Maddie is just looking at me. This was on a day when I just felt like I couldn't do it anymore.


some days we would get smiles

6 doctor visits
1 ER visit
multiple throw ups
breathing treatments (she was such a trooper)
ear infection
antibiotics
steam baths

steam bath number 2342

one of the many visits to the doctors
I couldnt ask for a better PCP

At first she continued to sleep through the night and I was shocked. Then came one night recently when she only slept from 2am-6am. She would wake up every hr just screaming bloody murder. It was awful. Her cry has become hoarse and its just heart wrenching. Seeing your sweet angel this sick has been so so heart breaking.
I have realized that I need to let go of control! God definiately is trying to teach me 2 major things through this illness. Let go on control and have more patience. I was so happy and so comfortable on our amazing schedule that when she stopped eating, stopped sleeping, and the schedule went down the drain, I thought life was never going to be the same again. I would get frustrated bc she wouldn't eat like she did-i know exhaustion had some to do with my weariness. I would get upset bc I was so discouraged at one thing happening after another (not to mention Andrew getting the stomach bug on top of EVERYTHING else!). I feel like God is saying--patience sweet child, you need to have patience and let go of the things you can't control like her eating and her sleeping-she is sick. I dont want to be the mom that gets frustrated at things I can't control bc with a child there is going to be more than I can imagine with that. I realize that if I continue to get down and out about those things, Im going to not be the mom He intended me to be and its going to make life a lot harder. Being a mom is a tough job but also the most joyful one. Its hard to have a clear mind when you have been stuck inside and not sleeping much day after day. I had a run with post partum depression after delivery and I was scared that it was going to creep back into my life. Thankfully, it never did. I got down but after a "come to jesus" prayer, God had extra mercy and grace for me I think.

At the ER seeing if we can keep down some Pedialyte
After a chest xray and some deep suction
Thank the Lord for deep suction (wish I could bring it home)



sweet thing on saturday 2/16
after many episodes of throwing up, wheezing, coughing
this was one sick girl with 2 worried parents

We have had amazing friends and family check on us, give us dinner, send us hot cookies, and just help out! My sister received multiple 2am phone calls and texts bc I just didnt know what to do! Last night 2/23 was the first night we didnt hear screaming and I was so thankful. Andrew let me rest till 10am and took care of her. So sweet!

Finally! We are seeing our sweet angel come back! I couldn't be happier and more relieved to see her eating, sleeping better, playing, and giggling. Oh how I have missed her! She lights up our hearts!

yeah for a pretty day, a happy Maddie, and lunch outside

Stay away RSV! Never come back!

Or Ill kick your you know what!

xo,

maddie

Month 5

Im totally 100% head over heels smitten in love with this little bug!!

We are having a blast!

Happy 5 months!!

New this month:

SOLIDS!

 

First time eating rice cereal!

hmmmm...wheres the good stuff mom!

big girl!
sitting up all by herself

Getting ready for valentines day!
 





My valentines!

They are gonna be BFF!

Month 4

4 months!!

She's just growing like a weed! A cute one!

:)

4 month stats:

wt: 13.15 (.8) oz (60%)

ht: 23.5" (10%-i don think we have a future bball player on our hands but thats A-ok!)

 

She's doing so great these days-talking, smiling, laughing, sleeping so well. Its so fun! We went home for Christmas and she did great on her first flight. On the way there we played most of the time and she slept on the decent down. On the way back home she slept 1.5 hrs out of the 2 hr flight. She was one tired booger from traveling. She was a champ though! I couldn't have asked for her to do any better!

the most precious duo

We arrived into Nashville the day before Christmas eve and stayed at my dads for 3 nights and then my moms for 3 nights. Christmas Eve day, Libby had some family and friends over for a little sip and see since this was our first time home to Nashville since she has been born. She was loved on tons! Then Christmas Eve night we had her family Christmas party-a tradition for them. Maddie was cute as a button and did so well. We kept her out past her bedtime and she did great. Until...2am! She woke up screaming! Poor thing, she was so overly tired that she couldn't fall back asleep so it was on my chest where she slept for the next 4.5 hrs. At 7am we got up for the day and noticed she had a little cold. So there was that "first." She was just sniffly and congested but conquered through it pretty well. The rest of the time all her naps and bedtimes were as they usually are so I was happy for that--Im a much nicer person when I get sleep too :)

We woke up Christmas morning at my dads and did breakfast/presents over there and then headed to my moms so they could see her and so she could meet Grandpapa and Donna. We had lots of fun! She got such sweet gifts and was such a big girl!

ellie loves her cousin maddie!!

loved seeing these kids
makes me so happy

dont you want to just kiss that tush!!

mom and dad date/christmas party in dallas

christmas eve 2012

meeting her great grandpapa for the first time

Then our favorite cousins came in from KY! Yeah! Ellie and TyTy were so happy to see/meet Madds. Aunt Mishi was just ready to love on little nuggles. We had a blast! Thanks for coming down! Christmas night was our last night at dads house and we had a big family dinner. I was completely exhausted as I had no sleep the night before (i can usually sleep with her on my chest but it was a rough night). Christmas night was fun and great to be around all the family. We are rarely all together these days.

aunt mishi and cousin e with maddie

poor maddie!!
all grandkids with the great grandparents

 

The next few days were much more low key and much needed. Madds needed to rest! We stayed at moms and took lots of naps and played. She met some life friends and we basically had a live in babysitter for three days. Andrew and I got a date night and we were able to go meet up with some friends one night for drinks. It was great to be home! I love Nashville and it still feels like home!

Month by Month

Month 1

Month 2

Month 3

Month 4

Month 5

Month 6

Month 7

 

Month 8

Month 3

Nuggles!!! You are three months and I cant believe it!

You are so much fun!

Sleeping--all night, 11.5 hrs! Go madds Go! You are such a sweet and great baby. You have been sleeping through the night for awhile now and its amazing.

:)

Eating--about 4 oz, 5 times each day. We are still learning about your feeding as you were quite the little spitter-upper but doing much better. You love to play with my hair when you eat and I love it too!

Thanksgiving with daddy

First family thanksgiving picture.
Sweet smocked dress made by deedee. Just beautiful

Sweet little bit.

My family bday dinner with the Morgan clan.

Me and sweet Madds on Thanksgiving.

Activities--you love the bouncy seat and you flirt with Coo (the koala bear) all the time. You can now make him sing too because you can reach. You love the little play mat too and you are so great at tummy time now. You love to go on walks with me during the day. We love spending time with you. You are trying so hard to laugh and its adorable. You make our hearts smile!

Highlights--Your first thanksgiving and my 30th bday. It was a great month. We are loving you more and more. We also have made it back to church a few times but havent put you in the nursery yet. I think im a bit too scared during RSV season for that one (thats what I get for working at Children's.)

Lots of fun walks with mommy during the day

You guys will be BFF

First time back to church in one of mommys old dresses.
I love seeing her in my old dresses. Super sweet.

 

Nuggles Month 2

Month 2 has been so much fun!

We are sleeping and eating and growing!

Go Madds Go!

 

We had our two month shots today, poor nugget! She did great for her first set of shots.

Wt: 10 lb 12 oz (50%)

Ht: 21 inches (25%)

FOC: 75%

Nugglehead
{Snuggles + Nugget = Nuggles!)

I mean, dont you just want to eat her up.
Shes just so yummy!

Eating-about 5-6 bottles/day, 4-5 oz.

Sleeping-slept through the night a handful of times and the nights she doesnt sleep through the night, she will wake up around 3-4am and then back to sleep till around 8-9am. We have been doing a dream feed which seems to be working out well. For nap time I can pretty much just lay her down in her crib and she puts herself to sleep. However, night time is a different story. We are using the swing (I have a bittersweet feeling about this swing) to help her get to sleep bc she fusses when put in the crib. Not sure why she likes her crib for naps but not night time? After her dream feed she sleeps great in her crib. She has been in her crib since about night 3 or 4. Andrew and I have a great system down--i warm the bottle while he changes/swaddles and then I feed her. Its a sweet time. I use that time to pray over her and just pray for others. I do love it. Its a sweet time for just us. Im excited for her to constantly sleep through the night at some point but I will miss these sweet moments and cuddles. I just love her more and more everyday and soak it up before I go back to work part time.

Activities-working on tummy time and doing great. You are so precious. We had our first play date wtih Bridget Curnes. Yall are so close in age and hoping to be good friends. We have also met other sweet friends who you will be great friends with-Bridge DeJean, Max Bryan, and Sam Holt. We love all our new friends. Cant wait for all the others on the way!

Maddie and Briget
I think all our play dates will start to be a bit more fun as time goes on
:)

 At our neighborhood Halloween Party!

Sweet neighbors
Henry, curious George
Addie, the banana
Oliver, the lumberjack
Maddie, the flower

First date night

 

Aunt Sades babysitting
We went to our favorite date night place-Houstons

We go on lots of walks, we make target and mall trips. We have been to Mi Cocina for dinners and celebrated Sadies 25th bday. We have been busy lately! Halloween is two days away and we had a neighborhood party that we attended with some of our favorite neighbors. She was a flower and a darn cute one at that! I just could eat her up!

Our sweet little pumpkin!

 

Grumps!

Sadies 25th bday dinner at R&D

Its fall! Gotta bundle up for walks!

You are talking-coo'ing and smiling at both of us. We love it! It makes our days so much more fun when you start to smile and coo. I cant wait for you to get to know us more and vise versa. Im so thankful for you!