I dont even know where to start! I havent blogged bc I didnt think I could keep it secret. We all know how hard that is for me. Well I made it about 6-8 weeks without telling people at work and then I busted. I told close friends the day I took a BFP (big fat positive) test. If you know me, you know that Im an open book and well I cant keep my mouth shut!
First, I couldn't have done this without Andrew (literally-ha, ok jk)--but really, I couldn't have made it through the past 12 weeks without him. From the minute we found out to today, he has been nothing but the sweetest thing! It makes me teary (definitely NOT hard these days) just thinking about how lucky I am to have a better half like him. From the minute we found out (story coming next), he prayed for both of us and little baby morgan. He has been amazingly patient with me from my nausea and vomiting to tears bc I felt so sick, my sleepless nights and my lack of being anything he married. ha. I don't know why I feel the need to tell him every time I throw up (which definitely is not as bad as some people) but he comes home from when Im throwing up just to check on me and then will go back to work. I mean just insert a tear! He is amazing. He listens to my fears and my excitement, all at the same time. He supports me and tells me my fears are normal and that little baby morgan is in the Lord's hands. Whatever the Lord gives us, is a gift from Him, and we will cherish it. I know this, its just nice to have the father of your child say this will you just blurt out every fear that comes along with being pregnant, especially for the first time. And yes, there are many fears that im definitely trying to hand over to the Lord. Working at Children's does not help right now! Whew! But whatever the Lord gives us, we will love and welcome into this world. I thank the Lord daily for giving me such an incredible partner in life. How did I get so lucky to have the supportive, loving, caring, patient, kind husband. It blows me away!
My tastebuds have been anything but nice to me! My love for oreos has diminished, my fruit intake has increased, chocolate stays around our house for weeks on end now--NOT normal for me. I can usually down a pack of oreos in 3-4 days. Well we have had the SAME pack in our pantry for at least 4 weeks--im sure they are quite stale by now! I have only cooked TWO meals the past 12 weeks. Im not sure how we have gotten by-oh by my better half that will call and ask what I feel like eating for dinner on the way home from work. It changes daily. One night pei wei sounds amazing and the next night, the thought of chinese foods makes me want to go look at the toilet all night. It has been quite an interesting journey from the morning sickness point of view. Whew! I definitely wouldn't have been able to function if I wasn't in this with my better half. He makes this process even sweeter.
Thank you for putting up with my non-sense for the past 12 weeks. You are my life savor!
And lets just go ahead and talk about my tears. Oh Lordy! I mean it doesn't take much for me to cry before getting pregnant. Well add that into hormones + being a baby when im sick anyways...and you get a hormonal tearful, crying, crazy pregnant lady! Im not surprised if I cry 7 days/week. If I dont feel good and Im tired--whew, watch out bc the tears are definitely gonna start. I love crying (always been a big one) so it doesnt really phase me and Andrew has been so incredibly patient with me which has been a huge support.
So....how it all happened! Well first thing is first-thats obvious :)
So I started taking tests the week before my period and I got about 4-5 negatives. Some people say you can tell that week?? So I started taking them bc I felt nauseated. I blamed it on new prenatal vitamins. I mean the two things that made me think--well maybe just maybe it worked this month was 1) i felt sick all day and 2) i started becoming extra tearful--example: i was out for a run before Christmas and there was a SUV pulling a wagon full of like 30 kids. They were all singing merry christmas as I passed and it was just the sweetest scene Ive seen in a long time--well it was about mile 3.5 that I saw that and i just bust into tears. They were sweet tears. Those kids just made my heart smile at that time and I couldn't hold it back. Can you imagine seeing this runner in the neighborhood probably all red and sweaty, just crying on her run? Well that crazy lady was me!
Ok back to the story-so those were the two things that I thought-maybe I am preg? But after so many negative tests, I just blamed the nausea on new vitamins and the tears on a really really bad PMS! Come Sunday before church (sunday before Christmas 12/18), i took a cheap test (like the cheapy ones off amazone.com) and it had 2 lines...I didnt even think twice about it. The test line wasnt nearly as dark as the control line so i just ignored it, threw it in the trash, off to church. We went to get lunch at a burger spot and I got an oreo shake for the way home...I took one sip and wanted to throw it out. Again, SO unlike my taste buds. You know I can eat anything oreo at anytime. So, I got home, and wooped out a real test-the digital tests. I brought it into the kitchen and we just stared at the test. At this point, i was 3 days late (and im never late-TMI? sorry). Andrew says "what do we do if its positive?" HA-i have no idea? Call my mom? Haha! So the LONGEST three minutes go by and we see this...
A big fat YES!!!! I start getting teary (i know, whats new?!?) and then we sit down and Andrew prays. I wasnt quite sure what he was thinking at the time--scared, freaked out?? I mean thats all natural right? haha! So we head to target to get more (his request) and to get the vitamins that I wanted. Well on the way to Target, I call my sister (she was oddly enough at home with my mom, lee, and the kids). So Lee answers the phone--she is in the shower. My response: I dont care, hand her the phone, this is urgent. It took me about 3 times of telling him to get her on the phone. So she gets out of the shower and immediately says--You are pregnant arent you? Ah! (well we had been speculating earlier that week since I was late). So I hadnt told my mom yet and they were on the way out the door to go play outside with the kids. We are at target getting more tests/vitamins....(not my typical Target run).
After returning home and getting like 3-4 more positives, my sister had already gotten the kids, mom, and lee in from outside. My sister and I were on skype before they walked in the door and when my mom and lee got on skype, i just held up the 5 BFP tests! We all laughed, i probably cried, and were really excited! I was able to tell my dad and libby that night as well. Andrew kept saying--what now? Do we need to take a test everyday until we go to the doc? :) haha, and my apt wasnt until weeks away-we hadnt even hit Christmas and my apt wasnt until like Jan 11th or something so we definitely had some lingering time between finding out and confirming. What a day I WONT forget! I probably called my closest friends and told them as well. I cant hold it in and I figured if something happens, well they would know anyways.
He doesn't look nervous at all does he? Ha! This is a classic and I love it!
So telling Andrew's family was the really fun part bc they were the only ones in town. We were headed home to N'ville for NYE but there is no way I could have kept it from my family for that long so it was via skype! I was dying to tell katie and sadie but Andrew made me keep my mouth shut and now im glad I did bc it made Christmas morning that much sweeter. Andrew and I went to Target to pick out a onsie that we could give Big H (his dad) and Laulie. Christmas eve was hard bc typically I would have been drinking wine with the rest of the crew. To try and throw them off, i poured one and just carried it around with me. Sadie seemed a little suspicious but the everyone else was clueless. So Christmas morning, we eat, open presents, and Im doing everything I can NOT to say anything. It seemed like hours that we had gotten over to Andrew's dads house and by the time we opened presents. Time was moving in slow motion. So presents came and went. We had one more gift :) Laulie was upstairs getting ready, sadie said she was gonna go get ready (we were headed to a movie)...and i told her to sit, and I got laulie. I had given the present to Henry and he read the card thinking it was from Ty. Ha. So when Laulie got the gift and read the card-she looked at me and just smiled. She knew immediately. Well, the pulled out this...
The card read something like..."next year you will need to dress me in this, love-orange seed (since it was the size of an orange seed-which totally just blows my mind). She pulled it out and everyone immediately jumped up and was so excited. We celebrated, I cried a little more (excitement tears of course). I was so glad that it was out in the open (with the family) and I didnt have to keep a secret any longer. Andrew has no problem keep secrets. It was a fun Christmas! Here are some more from Christmas morning (dont mind us-unshowered and rolling out of bed).
Andrew got some bourbon for Christmas
(little did they know this would come in handy with my tears later on haha)
The fam just finding out. Sadie looking at the pics we had taken the day we found out.
New Grandparents!
.Big H and Laulie.
Quite excited!
:)
The Morgan Clan.
And then in the next couple weeks...we saw this:
Its our t-tiny little peanut at 6.5 weeks. TINY! The heartbeat was strong at 150 bpm.
Until next time...
